I chase
beauty
because I once lost it.
My chin stopped developing when I hit puberty, leaving my face uneven and distorted. I went from a rosy-cheeked, cute child to a teenager with a deformed chin and skin that was both acne-scarred and dark. I desperately tried everything I could think of to regain the Use synonyms
beauty
I had lost—braces, strict diets, even stretching the skin around my chin, even though I knew it would never look normal again.
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ugliness
—or more precisely, the feeling of being ugly—didn’t end at insecurity. Half a year of being bullied in ninth grade left me with deep psychological wounds. Whenever I stepped into a new environment, I was always the first person others avoided. I had to work twice as hard to prove myself through my personality and my abilities, just to hope people might see something—anything—beyond my appearance. And yet, there were always those looks—especially from girls who worshipped physical Use synonyms
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I was waiting for my parents to pick me up, a group of girls stood far away, giggling, betting on who could sit next to me the longest, treating being near me as if it were some kind of challenge. But the moment that truly broke me was when I placed a self-portrait I had just drawn beside a mirror to check for mistakes. I Linking Words
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I always start every relationship at a “negative” level of goodwill, and even the smallest mistake could be enough for someone to hate me forever. Maybe it was growth, or maybe it was just a way of escaping, but I slowly learned to smile brightly in every photo—and Punctuation problem
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then
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where Use synonyms
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I wasn’t just trying to please others anymore—I had to focus on improving my craft. Perfect body proportions, perfect perspective; I refused to let the distortions of my real appearance exist within the bright, beautiful Use synonyms
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began as still images, but now I want it to live, to move; I want that better Use synonyms
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to have stories. I’m willing to trade days, weeks, even months in reality for just a few seconds of life inside that “Use synonyms
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